What would I do differently if I knew nobody would judge me? An interesting question. A question I pondered for a while before I was ready to be honest with myself.
It seemed my mind first had to go to all the judgment (whether perceived or real) that I felt heaped upon me because my son wasn’t serving a mission: I did something wrong, that this was really my failure; my son was bad and hopefully it wouldn’t rub off on anyone else; he must not believe in God; I must not have been diligent enough with family home evening and family scriptures. I could go on, but I’m sure you get the idea (and can even insert judgments you feel are cast your way ~ perceived or real ~ to round out the list).
These judgments made me show up apologetically and as though I was inferior to others. It was exhausting ~ and that’s when this question began to intrigue me: What would I do differently if I knew nobody would judge me?
My answer: love my son unconditionally, keep being a fully-engaged mom, and stop apologizing. But mostly I would just love him.
What would YOU do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
Comment below ~ I'd love to know!
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