Is this your struggle?
If you're a Latter-Day Saint Mom looking for peace because your son doesn't have the testimony you always hoped he would ~ please know you're not alone, nothing is wrong with you, and decisions, made by someone else, does not solely define your years of motherhood. You can have peace, even if . . .
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Hi Kelly- I am Moira's sister and she mentioned this to me today. My son sent in his mission papers March 2017. He was asked to lose 45 pounds before they would extend his call. He was upbeat and positive at first, but then spiraled in the other direction. This past year has been more difficult than my parents' divorce. To see my happy, strong child become obsessed with video games and Dungeons and Dragons and no longer interested in the church has been hard. The more difficult part is my happy child has turned away from family and has become very angry. He has since moved out and states, "I am the happiest I have ever been." (as he is selfish beyond measure and has turned away from his siblings.) I didn't want this to hurt as much as it did. I want to be so happy for all of these missionaries leaving, but somedays, I just couldn't. I too asked the why's often. This past weekend, I read the book, "The God Who Weeps" by Terryl and Fiona Givens. I only read it like 4 days ago but I feel like a huge burden has been removed because I was able to feel how the Lord loves my son. I had been praying to love him as the Lord does and this book taught me a lot of that. Also, I learned that we have an eternity to "get it right" and become as Christ. This just felt so right and I am okay with his detours. I know he is learning lots and so am I. This past year, I have become closer to God and Christ. We are all learning. I felt so much peace after reading this book.
ReplyDeleteBritta ~ I'm so sorry for the angst you're feeling (or have felt) because of your situation with your son. I will definitely look into the book you mentioned; I'm so glad it has brought you some peace and perspective. Thanks so much for sharing it with me. It's amazing the things we get to learn along this parenting journey. (PS: I'm not sure why this comment didn't show up when I saw your other comment; I apologize for not responding sooner. Tell Moira I said, "Hi!")
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